Insomniac!

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Are you reading this because you cannot sleep at nights? Or are you reading this in the middle of the night? It hurts how a foreign man or rather a stranger had taken control of me. I stay up at nights too. All alone. And it hurts sometimes. But now I have learnt to take control. It had been two years since my heart break and ever since I could never get out of it. It is my fault. Loving someone who had no value of it.

We are still friends. I mean, more or less. Just that its a one sided love too. Is it still friendship?সম্পর্কিত ছবি

I remember all those promises. I can not forget. I am not that kind. I overthink. I can not get over it. And when I feel hurt you know what I do? I write. He didn’t belong with me and I understood that very well. I did not mind. I just wanted a new place. Mainly I wanted to begin again. I hopelessly love on. That is all I have. One sided-ness. (If there is a word like that. ) Things go wrong. Life moves on. He was never happy with one girl. But I was. Happy with him. He sucked it all out of me.

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14 thoughts on “Insomniac!

  1. Well written, Ms. G, but maybe its time your protagonist threw a breakup party and moved on…🍻🍺🥂🍸🍷🎉🎈🎊🎋

    There are so many other emotions and facets in life…maybe she should explore those…what say?

    Why don’t you write something about friendship. Its a beautiful relationship. You can fight and disagree all you like, there will be no breakups. Friends can drift away for years, and then come back and pick up from exactly where they left off. What do say – worth a shot?

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    1. Can’t agree more with Subhasree on this! You ned to try a different relationship to write on now Guria 😊. If you need insights on what it’s like to get back with old friends after decades of complete disconnect and silence, you are welcome to pick my brain 😊.

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  2. That’s for you, Ms. G…

    I used to have a comfort zone where I knew I wouldn’t fail.
    The same four walls and busywork where really more like jail.
    I longed so much to do the things I’d never done before,
    But stayed inside my comfort zone and paced the same old floor.

    I said it didn’t matter that I wasn’t doing much.
    I said I didn’t care for things like commission checks and such.
    I claimed to be so busy with the things inside my zone,
    But deep inside I longed for something special of my own.

    I couldn’t let my life go by just watching others win.
    I held my breath; I stepped outside and let the change begin.
    I took a step and with new strength I’d never felt before,
    I kissed my comfort zone good-bye and closed and locked the door.

    If you’re in comfort zone, afraid to venture out,
    Remember that all winners were at one time filled with doubt.
    A step or two and words of praise can make your dreams come true.
    Reach for your future with a smile;
    Success is there for you!

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      1. Darling…you actually think I wrote this🤣🤣🤣

        Creative writing is not my fortè.

        But maybe will think of giving it a shot someday….

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